Hello From the Other Side

As it is NIAW (National Infertility Awareness Week) I thought I would take a lighthearted approach to another variation of supporting friends or family with infertility. By having a child, the pain that was endured getting to that point does not automatically disappear. For some, it never goes away. Every pregnancy announcement and baby shower is just as difficult as …

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Infertility & Loss, Uncategorized

Pretty sure I’ve lost my mind…

We’ve decided to start preparing for one last FET cycle with our last two frozen embryos. We have also made a decision that this is our last round at this crazy roller coaster ride here in infertility land. If it works it works and if it doesn’t then Thomas is the only child we will parent on Earth.

On one hand I’m excited at the possibility of having another child and hopefully a living sibling for Thomas. On the other hand I’m freaking the EFFFFF out.


Can I handle being on medication again?

How am I going to arrange monitoring appointments with a toddler?

What if it doesn’t work?  Am I going to be ok with parenting only one child on Earth? I say I am but we all know how this all goes….especially once pregnancy announcements start rolling in again…


What if it DOES work?

If I get pregnant….I’m going to be pregnant….. commence freak out….

How will I handle so many doctor appointments with a toddler?

Will I get Gestational Diabetes again?

Will that baby die?

Will I die ?

Will he/she have a brain malformation like Jack?

Should I try for a VBAC since my C-Section was so scary ( Thomas’ Birth Story )   ?

If I have to have a repeat C-Section can I request to be put under right away?

How will I balance my time with two children?

Doesn’t Thomas deserve to have us all to himself after the struggle we had to bring him here?


These are the thoughts of an over anxious thinker like moi , however, I suppose like with everything else I’ve been through I have to just take one step at a time.

First step….tomorrow I will go in for bloodwork and an ultrasound and go from there!


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Tonight …

Tonight I will put my son to sleep as a baby for the last time. When he wakes up he will be considered a toddler. A “non-toddling” toddler if you will. How did this happen? It all went too fast and it scares me to think of the future going just as fast as well! Last year this time my …

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All Things Mommy

Smash Cake & Easter Photo Shoot

I’ve been pinning on my “1st Birthday” board since April 1, 2015 so you can imagine how excited I am that its time for Thomas’ party! I’m not as excited that my baby is turning into a non-toddling toddler, but I’m super excited about his party! ….and presents….haha. Just kidding , the celebration is truthfully way more important to me. …

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Infertility & Loss

IVF Top 5

In my opinion, laughter is the best form of coping with being infertile. Many times I’ve had to make jokes or kid around about things in order to keep a smile on my face. In doing so, I’ve come up with a Top 5 list of my favorite statements that made me giggle… yet might possibly cause fertile people to …

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